1:48am- listening to some Tony Anderson
music that Symphony introduced to me the other day; It’s that time of the year
again when I do some reflection, not for the world to know what happened in my
life, but for my own sake, to know whether I’ve grown a little wiser as time
passes by, to know if I’ve become a better person in this life, and most
importantly to know if I’ve grown in my love for God. & I just realized that
I’ve not blogged for two years. There won’t be many pictures in this blogpost (walao
I just realized no one in this world uses blogspot anymore, this shall be my
last post here man) so yes, just my thoughts being typed out.
There are a couple of major things that I’m
thankful for this year…
1. University Life
I’m finally in University after taking a
long break from studies. Most of my friends are going to graduate already but I’ve
still got another three more years. It’s quite a struggle to know that I’m still
not exactly enjoying what I’m doing to the fullest (or is there even such a
thing). There are days that I come home thinking why the heck am I still
studying this course. Then I’m being reminded every single day of the bigger
picture- I may not know why I’m being placed here, but I know it’s not for me
but for the bigger Man who is sovereign over my life. However, I’m thankful
that I managed to get a full scholarship pursuing a degree in Civil
Engineering. It has helped ease some financial burden off my parents as I know
how hard it is for them to earn money just to support the family. I’m also
thankful for the few friends I have in my uni, I still have a lot of work to do
this year, not even sharing Christ with them. After completing my first year
here, may this be a reminder to me that I still have lots of work to be done
and I should not waste my uni life.
2. Teacher Life
This year has been pretty good in terms of
sowing lots of time into my student’s life and reaping the harvest in them
achieving results, being able to share with them about Christ and them being
thankful to me to even leave a small impact in their lives. It’s really these
things that keep me going in doing what I do. Maybe a short story about the few
students that I’ve focused on this year…
i. Roy
The Thai boy that I’ve taught for almost
two years. He was actually my very first one-to-one student that I’ve taught.
Mad proud of him after the many hours spent with him, he was able to get pretty
good results for the subject that I taught him. I wrote about him on my facebook
post a couple of months back. His mom contacted me to teach him for his college
again so I might be doing something that’s not wrong. Praise God indeed! (https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151682062666257&set=a.405963846256.205801.547831256&type=1&theater)
ii. Kristen
The Sunway girl whom I call her my “xiao
mei mei”. It was her PMR this year so most of my time spent was to teach her. I’m
thankful to be able to teach her as she has taught me a lot of things in my
life. Though she’s only 15 years old, I’m glad that I can talk to her about God
even at her age right now.
iii. Yoong Shen
I call him the champion because I remember
asking him to tick the topics that he didn’t know for his Add Maths (this was
two months before his IGCSE exam) and he ticked almost every single chapter. In
my mind I went ‘oh boy how are we gonna do this’, but I told him not to give up
and his perseverance paid off- 2 months of hardcore Add Maths and he managed to
almost get an A(2 marks to an A). That’s crazy! Appreciate the Sunday breakfast
that I have with you while teaching you bro.
iv. JT
The second champion whom I taught Physics
for about 3 months before his final IGCSE exam. Pretty funny dude and it was a
good experience teaching him!
v. Darren
Currently teaching him for his college
syllabus. Am glad that he managed to pick up the pace in his studies as he didn’t
do Add Maths in secondary school, phew hard work does pay off.
Every single student plays an important
role in my life. I spend hours every week this whole year teaching them. It has
taught me tons as an individual, much to learn. On the plus side, I’m also
being able to save up some money for my future and also being able to help to
contribute a little to my Grandpa’s medical fees. My passion for educating the
next generation hasn’t wore off yet. My goal is not to just help them get the A’s,
but to help them to be a better person, build them up to have better character
in this life. I truly believe that getting all the A’s in the world does not prove
much.
3. Skyward Life
A significant part of my life this year was
joining Mhan and Myue to play in a band together. I’m extremely thankful
to be able to serve our God with the passion that we have, constantly reminding
each other of why we’re doing what we’re doing. Having like-minded people around me
and being able to sharpen each other for the glory of God has been amazing
journey. We’ve barely started in this journey so here’s to many years ahead.
Soli Deo Gloria, Colossians 3:23- We give the glory skyward.
4. Church Life
I’m thankful for the people that God has
called me to shepherd. This year has been tough due to a lot of transitions. I’m thankful for every single individual that has been put in my life. I’m
constantly reminded of the gospel and it has to be preached to others because
this is my calling in this life as a disciple of Christ. Also, for the DG that
I’m in, that I can be accountable to this bunch of strong men in my life.
Without them, I really don’t know how I would survive this year.
5. High School Life, which never ended
Being a kampung boy, I’ve never really gone
for an overseas holiday before. This year I was blessed by my beloved mommy to
head to Melbourne to spend some time with my friends. A couple of us decided to
make Australia our meeting point as we were spread at different places of the
world. Truly appreciate the friendship that I have with this group of friends.
6. Life
I’m thankful for life, that I can breathe
another breath right now. I thank God for His grace every single day. I
remember the feeling when I felt like dying when I had dengue, to think about
it, I could have died that time because I was only admitted after at least a
week since I got the fever. Another major event that happened was the death of
Aunty Irene. Never thought that her time would come so soon, but I’m glad that
she’s no more in pain and suffering in this life. She has definitely played a
huge role in my life. There are a lot more things and people that I’m thankful
for. The friendship built over the past year is just God-given. To the handful
friends that I’ve got closer with this year, know that I appreciate you being
in my life. To my family, love you all to bits.
Reflecting back on this year, I ask myself
this, “Whatever I’m pursuing now, does it matter when The Day comes?”
I wake up every single day and most of the
time I wonder, why the Almighty Sovereign God would choose to save me and use a
sinful flawed and wretched man like me for His work. I really don’t know why. All I know is that I’m
living in His grace that I do not deserve at all. Knowing this humbles me to
the core, to know that I’m not superman and I need a Saviour to save me from my
sinful self. On that final day, I wish that I can say that I’ve fought the good
fight of faith.
It's 5.15am, I should sleep.
*vanwasere. (:
